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Whoosh

I was thinking that since I'm feeling so random, I might as well post up a really random picture.

I was mucking around with Clarice's camera the other day when we were chilling in Telawi Street Bistro. And there was this really nice painting put up behind our couch (though I don't think I'm artsy enough to interpret its meaning) and I took a picture of it with really slow shutter and kinda, like, pulled away.

Argh.

I'm not really good at explaining. But you know what I mean, right?



Whoosh

So, anyway, I've got fragments and fragments of thought in my head which I suspect won't quite make up a full picture.

Amongst those jumbled thoughts, I tried to be optimistic about going back to college next month. Truth be told, I'm dreading it. I'm really, really dreading it. I hate to whine, but I hate the place and the people more. So I guess my hatred for whining isn't as bad as my hatred for going back to college. Agree?

*sigh* But hatred is such a strong word. Like, love, for example.

I use the word love in sentences like, "Ooooh, I so love pickles wey~". It's difficult for me to use it on, say, someone whom I actually am affectionate about (is that sentence even correct?). I've never told my parents I loved them. Or any of my family members in fact. That word is like taboo.

Yeah, and then the other day, I was having this nightmare moments before waking, and it was horrible, I'm telling you. Like, way horrible. It's one of those where you wake up wondering if it was real. I dreamt that he was breaking up with me, and I was practically begging him to stay. Then my phone beeped because there was an incoming SMS. And so (in reality) I reached for it and checked the message.

It said "How are you sweetie..."

Phew.

I weighed myself yesterday and was pleasantly surprised that I'm *ahem* 44.8kg now. That's, like, so my peak. So you people who insist that I'm skinny, you can now eat your heart out. Because I'm currently at my fattest, as opposed to some friends who insist on dieting and going to the gym regularly.

Woohoo~

I'm fat. I'm fat. I'm fat. *sprinkles confetti at everyone*

This is getting too random for comfort.

Music baton

Wimal tagged me the other day. And I've finally decided to pass on the baton.

Total volume of music files in my computer: 760MB in my music folder, 167MB in videos, and another 800MB randomly placed in the PC. Not much, actually *smirks*

The last CD I bought: Robbie Williams's Greatest Hits

Song playing right now: None (though Lindsay Lohan is annoyingly in my head) "...my tears are turning into time, I've wasted trying to find a reason for good bye..." YUCK.

Five songs that I listen to a lot and mean a lot:

1. She's the One by Robbie Williams - Because it's Robbie Williams, because it reminds me of someone who was once special to me.
   
2. Dan Yuan Ren Chang Jiu by Faye Wong/Teresa Teng - Loosely translated into something like "Wishing Our Love Lasts Forever" or something like that. He's one in a million, and you're another one in another million. A miracle you two could've met.
3. If You Sleep by Tal Bachman - I don't think I need to explain more if you've read this.
4. You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban - It's a little like my quiet moments with God. Moments when I wonder where He is when I need him. Moments when guilt sets in and I realize that He's always been there, even when I felt strong enough to be on my own.
   
5. Alone by Shimokawa Mikuni - Soundtrack to Gensomaden Saiyuki. I have no idea what it means, but it gives me the sort of feelings that I can't explain.

And now, 5 people whom I'm passing the baton on to *drumroll*

• Elaine
  
• Chin Hor
• Michelle
• Tim
• Fiona

You guys have fun yeah~ *cackle*

Why am I not happy?

Maybe it's because I'm PMS-ing.

Picture of you

Picture of you

"Picture of You"

Didn't they say that I would make a mistake
Didn't they say you were gonna be trouble
People told me you were too much to take
I couldn't see it, I didn't want to know

I let you in, and you let me down
You messed me up and you turned my life around
Left me feeling I had nowhere to go
I was alone how was I to know that

You would be there when I needed somebody
You would be there the only one could help

I had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along

Who'd believe that after all we've been through
I'd be able to put my trust in you
Goes to show you can forgive and forget
Looking back I have no regrets cos

You would be there when I needed somebody
You would be there the only one could help me

I had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along

You would be there when I needed somebody
You would be there the only one could help me

I had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along

Had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along

Had a picture of you in my mind, all along
Never knew it could be so wrong, all along
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along

Boyzone

I like this song. It's a feelgoodhappyhappysingalongsprinkleconfettiatyou kind of song. Makes me want to dancebesillysingintheshowerandgrinstupidly.

So, anyway, yeah, I was thinking of a few people while humming to myself softly (no names mentioned alright? I'm sure you all know who you are). And I just want to say...

• Thank you all for being who you are
• You people drive me up the wall sometimes, but I love you all the same
• I laugh so hard that sometimes I feel like wetting my pants when I'm with you guys
  
• Fair weather friends you're all not, you held my hand and we braved through storms
• You're all stuck with me till I'm old and wrinkly and have no teeth

*awwww* group hug...

If one day

...I hurt you unintentionally, please remember the times I've made you smile.

... conversation between us cease, please remember the time you said hello and we took it from there.

...I cry, please remember that the remedy is always you.

...I turn away from you, remind me of the sweet messages you sent to cheer me up.

...I wake up to a nightmare, remind me of the fairytale you brought my way.

...I get blinded by anger, remind me of the flowers you gave me, just because.

...we choose to walk our separate journeys, please remember the path we once shared.